So I forgot to do a month progress picture this time around so I threw up a quick one. In the first picture I wasn’t actually at my biggest, I had already lost about 50 pounds, but this is my up to day 140 pound loss (10stone) which was my original goal when i started 2 years ago, i’ve done it and i’m extremely proud of myself, it takes a lot emotionally to understand yourself, and although I haven’t talked about my feelings nearly enough I think I’ve made some progress from where i was. I found who I am in the fog and shit of the person I pretended I was. I still have some weight to lose but at least now its all down to when and not if.
This mean’s all together I’ve lost over 9 stone since i started looking after myself. I hope one day soon I can talk comfortably about the problems I had and this things I went through but for now I’ll still keep them to myself as a secret inspiration. I feel privileged to have the chance to look after myself. not many people can do that and no I don’t blame it all on laziness, some people emotionally just can’t. it’s not easy! it’s mentally changeling and you go through more up here (points at head) than you might see in your body. baby steps players, baby steps thats all it is. don’t go trying to re-invent the wheel also. mother nature isn’t stupid and neither are you. do what your body tells you. not you’re brain.
that’s not bad given I had to also loose the 5 pounds I gained on holiday, I’m chuffed proud of my mate tom aswell LIFTING LIKE A FUCKING TANK! will upload some lifting stats later on, i hope I can get stronger while dieting and not weaker… hmmm
Big or Small!
P.s Carbs are for Cat ladies. (but not really, don’t be mad at me potato)
I kinda like how he breaks down in this video.
Totally just had a bad ass nap, its exhausted me so much i think i need to get an early night… its a hard like! Tomorrows Macros I think, I’m not lifting heavy so no need for a bomb of carbs I might add in some fat free milk tho, i’m a sucker for that shit. holiday weight is almost gone, felt like I was going to be sick this morning at the gym, shoulders where still sore from powerlifting and I missed breakfast. ROOKIE MISTAKE! back to work tomorrow, finally have something to take my mind off stuff!